Angelica M Casas recently made a video for BBC, How US police line-ups jail the innocent, which highlights Uriah Courtney’s story, a classic case of mistaken identification. The video details problems and solutions regarding the ways line-ups are conducted. Only two weeks ago, Uriah and California State Senator Scott Wiener, who also appears in the video, testified at the state capital about mistaken eyewitness identification.
Uriah and I worked together for more than three years to craft Exoneree, the story of his wrongful conviction and over eight years of incarceration before new DNA testing led to his eventual exoneration. The book shows how mistaken identity contributed to his wrongful conviction.
My collaborative memoir with Uriah Courtney about his wrongful conviction, incarceration, and subsequent exoneration is now available. Such a thrill to finally hold the physical copy of the book in my hand this week!
What if America’s judicial system, designed to protect the innocent, convicts the wrong man and sends him to prison? Uriah Courtney was incarcerated over eight years–for a crime he did not commit. But God set him free–spiritually and physically–to a new life inside his heart and outside razor wire.
Exoneree relates how badly the judicial system can go wrong, but how intensely a dedicated few seek justice. It depicts God’s protection amid the horrors of incarceration. And while it shows dark depravity, it shines with divine transformation.
A sensitive man who loved the outdoors and his family, Uriah viewed life imprisonment as a death sentence. Yet God worked through this trauma to bring him new life. Uriah’s transparent narrative transcends most jailhouse conversion accounts, as he confesses how becoming a Christian helped him cope in some ways but didn’t solve every problem.
Even after his release and exoneration through God’s providence and the efforts of the California Innocence Project, Uriah faced unexpected challenges. In his warm and personable voice, Uriah describes how focusing on Christ helps him to continue overcoming the bitterness and anger often associated with trauma.
And that’s a story everyone needs to read.
Exoneree can be purchased directly from the publisher, Wipf and Stock, on their website. Amazon offers paperback and Kindle versions.
What an incredible week! Last Thursday, I did a book party in the Chicago area. On Friday and Saturday, I spoke as the keynote for a women’s conference at Cornerstone URC in Hudsonville, MI. And on Monday, I met with two publishers in Grand Rapids.
As I drove on Thursday toward Chicago, a tune kept running through my mind. I couldn’t think of the words or identify the song, but I thought it might begin with, “Speak to me” or something similar. When I arrived at my host’s home, I asked her about it. She’s an accomplished pianist and organist, and she immediately identified it as “Speak, O Lord.” She printed off the lyrics, which I’m pasting here so you can see how they fit with my experiences.
Speak, O Lord, as we come to You
To receive the food of Your Holy Word.
Take Your truth, plant it deep in us;
Shape and fashion us in Your likeness,
That the light of Christ might be seen today
In our acts of love and our deeds of faith.
Speak, O Lord, and fulfill in us
All Your purposes for Your glory.
Teach us, Lord, full obedience,
Holy reverence, true humility.
Test our thoughts and our attitudes
In the radiance of Your purity.
Cause our faith to rise; cause our eyes to see
Your majestic love and authority.
Words of pow’r that can never fail—
Let their truth prevail over unbelief.
Speak, O Lord, and renew our minds;
Help us grasp the heights of Your plans for us—
Truths unchanged from the dawn of time
That will echo down through eternity.
And by grace we’ll stand on Your promises,
And by faith we’ll walk as You walk with us.
Speak, O Lord, till Your church is built
And the earth is filled with Your glory.
(Words and Music by Keith Getty & Stuart Townend)
My prayer about the “Soul Rest: Resting in God” conference had long been that God would speak through me, feeding the women through His Word and planting His truth deep inside each of us. My desire was for God to shape us in His likeness that we might go forth and show His love, fulfilling His purposes for His glory.
Presentations spoke about obedience, humility, as well as developing thoughts and attitudes that contribute to rest. The radiance of God’s purity reminded me of the last line of my final presentation, about how “the pale moon of each individual I must fade in the blazing sun of the great I AM.” I had written my talks with a view to showing hearers not only God’s power and authority, but also His great love. The presentations were saturated with Scripture’s “words of power.” I had written at length about renewing our minds to focus on God’s plans and His eternal truths, His gracious promises, and our walk in the Spirit. It seemed the song had been written for me and all the women at the conference.
That Thursday evening, I enjoyed fellowship with about a dozen women at a book party, and I left the next morning for Michigan. I was able to check into my hotel room early and had lunch with a woman with whom I’ve communicated for years regarding my books published by Reformed Fellowship, for which she works. It was great to finally meet this forever sister in person, and she was extremely helpful, showing me the church and helping me set up (and tear down after the conference). I had a light dinner (I was too nervous to eat much for a few days before the conference) with conference organizers, who were a terrific bunch of friendly and kind sisters in the Lord. Then women began to arrive for the conference. What a joy to meet many I’d communicated with by email, but met now for the first time face-to face! Two I met were the wife of my editor at Christian Renewal and the secretary for that magazine.After the first presentation, I had the opportunity to chat with my editor, when he and the secretary’s husband came in to pick up their wives.
The next day, I presented twice and signed books when I had free time. While I was signing books before the last session, some women gathered at the front of the sanctuary for an informal hymn sing. Suddenly, the strains of “Speak, O Lord” wafted out to me. Tears filling my eyes, I explained the connection to the women standing by my table and we all agreed how amazingly God sometimes works in our lives. I was still signing books as women filed into the sanctuary and found their seats. The song leader asked several women to come forward and sing a song before the afternoon presentation began. Can you guess what they sang? Yes, “Speak, O Lord.”
By the time I got on stage, I was pretty emotional. I shared how God had been speaking to me through that song, although I wish I’d taken time to go through the lyrics and point it all out, as I did earlier in this post. But I’m not sure I had my copy of the lyrics with me, and I might not have made it through that process without breaking down.
Throughout the conference, God blessed me with many meaningful interactions with women, including times I prayed with some and times others prayed for me.
That Saturday evening, I was incredibly blessed to spend some time with the Christian Renewal people. For one thing, I could actually eat! But primarily because this was the first time ever that the editor and secretary and I were together. I felt like part of a visible team of which I’ve been an invisible member for years.
On Sunday, I worshiped at a Sovereign Grace URC in Grand Rapids and had lunch at the home of a couple I know. The husband had edited my book on infant loss, and the wife had edited both my published devotionals. I also spent some lovely time with a nephew and his wife who live in Grand Rapids.
On Monday, I attended meetings at Puritan Reformed Theological Seminary (the home of Reformation Heritage Books). After a tour of the beautiful building, I joined everyone present for their usual 10:00 prayer meeting. Then Dr. Beeke and a few others met with me to discuss a proposed project. Before I left the Seminary, I signed a contract to write with Dr. Beeke a book called Puritan Heroes. The goal is to publish this in a similar format to RHB’s popular book, Reformation Heroes. It may come out at the end of 2017 or in 2018. While at PRTS, I had the opportunity to do some research in its extensive library of Puritan resources.
That afternoon, I also met with an acquisitions editor at a different publishing house. I’ve been communicating with her for some time regarding Exoneree (a memoir collaboration with Uriah Courtney, who was wrongfully convicted and incarcerated for over eight years). She and her team had already reviewed the manuscript and expressed an interest, but preferred that it be cut down by nearly 20,000 words. She wanted to hear about my January trip to San Diego, when Uriah and I met with the California Innocence Project’s book club and participated in their discussion about the memoir. She shared some promising information about possible opportunities, and I’m more eager than ever to focus on revising the manuscript and book proposal.
In God’s providence, I was able to avoid the busiest Chicago freeways during rush hour by driving down into Indiana to spend the night with a friend. She and another friend and I enjoyed a great evening together, and I was blessed with a good night’s rest. The next morning, I drove on secondary roads until I got on I-80 at Morris, IL, far past the heaviest traffic that makes me feel like a bug boxed in by trucks. I arrived safely home yesterday afternoon. My husband was already home from work and happy to see me (as I was to see him). My little lapdog, Libby, nearly licked me to death. She always mopes around and barely eats while I’m gone. My husband says she must think that if she fasts and prays enough I’ll come back home. But she ate all her food last evening.
God spoke. He was with me every step and every mile of this amazing adventure. It was exhausting, but exhilarating to see Him working through everything!
Announcing…[drum roll] a new Facebook page for the memoir project I’m working on with Uriah Courtney.
Uriah is a high-profile exoneree who was wrongfully convicted and incarcerated more than eight years for a sexual assault he did not commit. Sentenced to life in prison, he eventually was released after new DNA testing conclusively matched another man, a registered sex offender who lived with three miles of the crime scene at the time.
The California Innocence Project (CIP) took on Uriah’s case and worked with law enforcement and other organizations to obtain the new testing. CIP efforts secured Uriah’s release and his subsequent exoneration. CIP has supported and encouraged Uriah in amazing ways. They’ve posted his story, pictures, and videos of his release and his emotional reunion with his son. Because the wrong conviction was a sexual assault against a minor, Uriah was not permitted contact with his son while he was incarcerated. His son was two-years-old when Uriah was arrested. He was ten when Uriah finally hugged him again.
Last spring, I interviewed Uriah and wrote an article about him for Christian Renewal. After that, we both felt compelled to share Uriah’s story with a wider reading audience by writing his memoir. Uriah began sending me chunks of memories, which I started organizing and crafting into chapters. Through a series of amazing providences, I flew to San Diego last fall to meet him and work with him in person for a few days.
Since then, we’ve moved forward on the project and have sought publishing avenues. Both of these aspects remain works in progress, but we trust God will provide exactly the right publisher and editor in his perfect timing. We’re aiming at an August manuscript completion date.
And we’re already promoting the memoir, particularly through the Facebook page. Check it out! You’ll find more pictures of Uriah and our time together in San Diego. When you visit the Uriah Courtney, Exoneree page, be sure to “like” it. We do.
Earlier this year, I interviewed Uriah Courtney for an article that appeared in the June 25 issue of Christian Renewal. We communicated via email and that article about Uriah’s wrongful conviction and his extraordinary exoneration is posted here.
Soon after we finished our interview process, I felt burdened by a desire to spread Uriah’s amazing story to a wider reading audience. I offered to help him if he’d ever considered writing a book. He replied that a number of people had mentioned he should do it, but it seemed overwhelming to him. We both prayed about it, and we both became convicted at the same time that we should proceed.
For the next couple of months, Uriah sent me chunks of biographical information, which I reviewed and organized. As I got into the actual writing, I felt compelled to meet Uriah in person so that I could more faithfully portray his unique “voice” in this memoir from his first-person perspective. We began discussing how we might work out a meeting and praying about that possibility.
For two more months, we continued working and praying. At times each of us felt under spiritual attack, and we felt a keen need for prayer. We discussed developing a list of prayer partners to keep updated with the project so they could pray more intelligently for it.
Then Uriah mentioned meeting a couple I know (I had stayed at their home one night more than four years ago). I emailed them, just catching up, and asked if they’d be interested in being our prayer partners. The wife replied with a friendly message, informing me that they were leaving the area in two days, but would be back for only ONE WEEK out of the remainder of this year. She parenthetically suggested that if I wanted to come out to report on their church’s Reformation conference and meet Uriah, I could stay at their place.
My mind and stomach began to churn. I wanted to meet Uriah as soon as possible, but the projected dates were only a month away! Could I fly out to southern California that soon? I looked over my upcoming deadlines and contacted Uriah to see what his schedule was like for that time frame. Except for his work days, he was available. We decided to send a first message to our prayer partners, explaining our project and submitting several prayer requests, including that God would make his will plain regarding a possible meeting.
The next day, I received a reply from one of those prayer partners, expressing his desire to facilitate this meeting with Uriah by providing me with guest airline passes. It was as if God put one hand on my head to bless me, but the other behind my back to gently shove me forward and said, “Go!” I went.
When Uriah and I met, we felt an immediate connection in Christ. This enabled us to move forward with united purpose on the memoir project. Our time together was productive and encouraging. We repeatedly experienced evidences of providential blessing. Never before in my relatively-long life have I seen God’s providence so obviously in action.
We feel filled with awe. Please join us in praising God and giving him all the glory!
In 2005, Uriah Courtney was convicted for a crime he did not commit and sentenced to life in prison. He was released and exonerated in 2013 after new DNA testing proved his innocence.
Because he was accused of a sexual assault on a minor, he was not permitted to see his son for the entire eight years he was wrongfully incarcerated, from the time the boy was two until he was ten.
If anyone has an excuse to be bitter, Uriah does. But he chooses not to harbor bitterness and anger. This is not easy, but he trusts that God was in control of even those eight years in prison, and he sees how God used that time to turn him from running toward destruction to walking with the Spirit.
Uriah says, “What I went through was not a good thing, but it was used for good. Knowing that has helped me overcome bitterness. I have been given a new life and I don’t want to waste it by spending all my time being angry and bitter about something I can’t change. But I confess this is not an easy task. I must always be looking at Christ and Him crucified in order to keep from dwelling too long on all that I’ve lost. It’s godliness with contentment that’s great gain.”
Uriah’s response echoes Scripture because he spends time in God’s Word. When he entered prison, he found a Bible and read it for hours each day, trying to make sense of what had happened to him. Even though he wasn’t guilty of the crime of which he’d been convicted, the Spirit revealed to him that he was a sinner and his sins had been an offense against a holy God.
“As painful as it was to admit to myself,” he says, “it became very evident to me by my reading of the Scriptures the reason for which I was in jail—so I could repent and be saved. God saved me from self-destructing and spending an eternity in hell. I was close to death’s door from the large quantities of drugs I was using and utterly depraved, but God’s great grace swallowed me up and He caused me to be born again.”
When asked about his conversion, Uriah says, “The best and most accurate answer for when I became a Christian, I believe, is when Christ died on the cross for my sins 2000 years ago; for God chose us in Him before the foundation of the world. That being said, I became aware that I had been born again in August 2005, in county jail. Some might say I’m a jail house convert.”
Although Uriah’s mind was still clouded from drugs he’d been using and he’d always hated reading, he felt inexplicably drawn to reading Scripture.
“It just seemed like I was supposed to read that Bible,” he says. “I didn’t understand why, but I knew I had to. And read I did, every day, two or three times a day. I began reading it like you would any other book, from the beginning. I thought this was the most logical and sensible place to start because Genesis 1:1 starts, ‘In the beginning, God.’”
Initially Uriah had no idea about the impending charges. “I was completely unaware of the trial and tribulations I was soon to face. But God surely knew and He was no doubt preparing me to walk through the valley of the shadow of death.”
A few weeks later, he was extradited from the county jail in Texas to San Diego, where he was charged with kidnapping and rape. He says, “I was completely bewildered and utterly devastated by such horrible accusations. I had never experienced such fear in my life. This panic, fear and confusion led me deeper into the Word.”
Psalms especially resonated with him. “My greatest comfort came from the Psalms. There was just so much material there that I could relate to. It was from them I learned that it was okay to pour out your anger and frustration and fears to God without offending or sinning against Him. King David’s prayers became my prayers and I bent the Lord’s ears with them constantly.”
Uriah was transferred to another county jail in San Diego and began attending chapel services, where he prayed the customary sinner’s prayer, asking the Lord to forgive him and inviting him into his heart. “And so began an extremely long and painful process of sanctification,” he says. “But the truth is He was already there.”
After being moved back to the previous jail, Uriah became very close to the chaplain and his wife. “They were a great encouragement to me before, during and after my trial. I spent two and a half years in county jail, 18 months of that the Lord blessed me with the steadfast love and friendship of the Budloves.”
In June of 2007, Uriah was sent to the state prison to begin serving his life term. Still deeply reading the Bible, he developed a budding interest in theology but material was sparse and shallow. Yet he read whatever he could find.
“In 2009, I was moved to another yard at the prison where I was being warehoused and wound up with celly who was Reformed,” he says. “Up‘til that point, I don’t think I had ever heard of the Reformed faith, let alone any of the Reformers.”
His new cellmate had a number of volumes on Reformed theology, and Uriah became familiar with authors such as R.C. Sproul, John Calvin, and his favorite: Jonathan Edwards.
“It took no time at all for me to develop a deep love and affection for the Reformed faith,” he explains. “So much of the confusion and lingering questions on passages of Scripture and certain doctrines finally made sense to me. My passion for God’s Word was set aflame all over again. This was, as it were, my second great awakening.”
A couple of months after Uriah’s introduction to the Reformed faith, he learned of a Reformed Bible study and was permitted to enroll and attend.
He says, “Glory be to God for this Bible study!”
The study was led by Alex Ferrat, who was then a deacon at Christ United Reformed Church in Santee, CA. From the start, he emphasized that the study should not take the place of attending regular worship services, encouraging the men to fellowship with believers and share their faith with others.
“But I confess that I really did consider this Bible study ‘church’,” Uriah admits. “It was the only service available where one could actually hear the gospel, maybe not preached, but certainly exposited, and that with reverence and awe.”
Alex’s devotion and dedication were apparent to Uriah, who appreciated the teaching as well as the many resources Alex made available to the men. Alex often mentioned Christ URC and Pastor Michael Brown, or related something from a sermon, or described the church’s worship.
“I yearned to be part of such a congregation and vowed that if I ever got out of prison I was going to go to Christ URC,” Uriah says. “I developed much brotherly love and affection for Alex during that time and was devastated when we were no longer allowed to have our Bible study due to some lame security issue.”
Uriah grew even more despondent about a year later, when the White Horse Inn no longer broadcast over a local radio station. He and his new cellmate, Jonathan (who was a devoted Lutheran) had loved listening to that program, followed by Sproul’s Renewing Your Mind. Uriah wrote to Dr. Michael Horton, expressing his sorrow and explaining that those programs had been the only resource for prisoners seeking to deepen their biblical understanding. Dr. Horton responded by sending Uriah a copy of his The Christian Faith.
“I must add here that celly, Jonathan, is one of the kindest, gentlest, faithful children of God I know,” Uriah says. “He had a Masters degree in Divinity and much training in righteousness and godliness. We were cellmates for over three years, and it was certainly by our great God’s providence that he and I were brought together. I learned a lot from that brother.”
God had plucked Uriah like a burning reed from the fire of self-destruction, and breathed the Holy Spirit into his heart. He had provided cellmates and Bible study that opened Uriah’s mind to the Reformed faith. Uriah’s life had been changed, yet he often despaired.
“At times, fear and loneliness were my closest companions and tormented me day and night,” he says. “I really had no way of knowing for sure that I would ever go home because the Bible didn’t explicitly say, ‘Uriah, you will surely be exonerated and your liberty restored.’ I understood that God didn’t owe me anything just because I had repented and become a believer. He already did enough by sacrificing His Son to pay the penalty for my sins. But through my diligent study of the Scriptures, I was strengthened and encouraged.”
In 2009, Uriah’s parents contacted the California Innocence Project (CIP), which pursues only the most hopeful of the many requests it receives. Even when the CIP accepts a case, numerous other events must fall into place before a rare exoneration occurs. Only about one in 1,000 Innocence Project cases results in exoneration. Uriah’s case was that rare exception due to a series of circumstances: his case garnered CIP attention, the original evidence had been retained, the District Attorney’s office cooperated well with CIP, and eventually a new method of DNA testing proved his innocence. The DNA matched a known sexual offender, similar in physical appearance to Uriah, who had been living within three miles of the scene at the time of the crime.
After being wrongfully incarcerated for eight years, Uriah was released from prison in May of 2013. With the full approval of the DA’s office, a Superior Court judge dropped all charges against him in June of 2013. Uriah Courtney was exonerated.
Uriah gives God all the glory. “God was the ultimate cause for me getting released from prison, being fully exonerated and my name cleared,” he says. “But God works through means and that means was the California Innocence Project.”
After Uriah’s release, he began attending Christ URC, where the congregation welcomed his warmly. He says, “They embraced me with such love that it felt as if I were being embraced by Christ himself.”
Uriah was baptized and publically professed his faith on November 10, 2013. “That was one of the best days of my life,” he says. “I had finally become a member of the visible body of Christ. I won’t recount here what Pastor Brown said to the congregation before he baptized me, but there were many eyes with tears in them, and many hearts giving glory and praise to God.”
Adjusting to life on the outside can be difficult. Many things had changed in the past eight years. And Uriah feels uncomfortable at social functions. But he relates how the hardest thing is having missed watching his son grow up. “This pains my heart deeper than anyone can possibly understand. I’m a stranger to my own son. He knows who I am, but he doesn’t know me.”
Still Uriah thanks God for the blessings in his life, especially his work as an apprentice pipefitter and his home with godly parents. “I get to hug my mom once again each night before I go to bed and greet my stepdad very early each morning before I go to work. My parents have given me so much and I just thank and praise God for them.”
He’s also becoming occupied with the Innocence Project. He recently spoke for the Irish branch, and he participated in the national Innocence Network conference. He also recently testified before the state legislature.
“On May 6, I had the opportunity to give my testimony to about 50 baseball players from San Diego Christian College,” he says. “May 6 was my one-year anniversary of freedom. One of the elders from Christ URC is a coach at the College and set things up. It was a wonderful day and I thank God for it.”
The above article by Glenda Mathes appeared on pages 20-22 of the June 25, 2014, issue of Christian Renewal.